Sunday, June 29, 2008
1:43 AM
it's 2 am and i can't get to sleep yet. so i'm just typing away here hopefully, the typing therapy will finally get me sleepy enough to hit the bed. parents are away for a weekend cruise so this is the second night i've had the house to myself. woke up early to go to work, then met shyam for lunch and crashed his place for some good old console gaming relaxation. wasted the afternoon away on ninja gaiden 2 and mass effect. before meeting up with sanjay and louis too to go watch get smart.
sometimes i read a good book, or i watch a good movie and i wonder what happened to my dreams. the ones where i used to want to be a good fantasy novelist, or a screen writer or an actor or a director in hollywood. i remember the days i was in a hurry to get to the states after finishing NS, 2 years that i considered a waste of my time that'll put me back from trying my hand at my dreams. those days seem so far away now. it's like you have to consider reality, the older you get. dreams don't put food and money on the table. but times like this with wistful thinking, you wonder what if you had gone ahead with your dreams, and you also think whether it is too late or not to still do what you want to. a soci degree from smu will probably put food on the table. it's not my passion, but out of all of those jobs that aren't my passion, dealing with the human psyche, HR, or even hospitality interests me the most.
but are you destined to be one of those who look back at 30 plus, 40 and have a mid life crisis, wondering on the what ifs?
hmmm. i wonder what if i'd dropped my place in smu and packed up and left for the states right away. lol.