I felt for sure last night That once we said goodbye No one else will know these lonely dreams No one else will know that part of me I'm still driving away And I'm sorry every day I won't always love these selfish things I won't always live... Not stopping...
It was my turn to decide I knew this was our time No one else will have me like you do No one else will have me, only you
You'll sit alone forever If you wait for the right time What are you hoping for? I'm here I'm now I'm ready Holding on tight Don't give away the end The one thing that stays mine
Amazing still it seems I'll be 23 I won't always love what I'll never have I won't always live in my regrets
You'll sit alone forever If you wait for the right time What are you hoping for? I'm here I'm now I'm ready Holding on tight Don't give away the end The one thing that stays mine
"23" - jimmy eat world.
freaking haunting song. damn nice, all should go and take a listen.
ftb is finally over. wasnt as bad as i thought it'll be, but it wasnt exactly damn great either. think i preferd soc sci camp/starring. in that order. school next week. gonna have not much of a life already, sigh.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
10:47 PM
do you get the feeling that sometimes it's all a great big pretend, and that it's so damn tiring to keep up the charade. ppl expect you to be something, to act in someway; but sometimes you just wanna throw the finger and do whatever you want and to heck with the consequences?
so damned restlessly sian. and for what reason, i know not what. its like a mental itch you cannot reach/scratch.
ARGH WTF (#*%&^)@*%^)@*&%^)@.
10:32 PM
for the record, quit the comments or questions ok? everything's ok now.
Thursday, August 7, 2008
2:40 PM
today i laughed while i heard something ridiculous. how i became at fault for something that YOU did.
ok so it's like this. i go out and leave my computer on, because its defragging. i've switched off my laptop cause i don't need it. i come home and it's shut down, by YOU. you didn't call to check before being so "helpful", because apparently the last few times when you called i said it was supposed to be shut down already, and for you to just complete the process. yes, my computer is screwed up ladies and gents, it can get stuck at the End Program screen when shutting down for 2 hours. anyway, because of that, and because you didn't want to "irritate me by calling my hp to check" you helpfully switched off my pc. when it was running the fucking defragger. now i've no idea whether my computer has finished defragmenting, or if my files are in a half fuck state of being half defragmented. and somehow, miraculousy, you can start yelling at ME saying it's MY fault that i didn't tell you not to touch my computer when YOU were the one who touched it the first place? if i don't need things fixed in my room i don't expect you to be so goddamned helpful. so somehow you've become absolved of ALL blame, and it's my fault my computer is turned off. so fucking great. and then you can proceed to lecture me on my ungratefulness, how i don't help out around the house, how you can just change the locks without telling me and i can stay outside. WELL I SAY FUCKING DO IT. STOP USING THAT THREAT OVER AND OVER. YOU THINK THAT SCARES ME? WHY ARE YOU ALWAYS IN THE RIGHT, AND I'M ALWAYS IN THE WRONG, I'M ALWAYS THE ASSHOLE.
y'know what? go fuck yourself. i swear, as soon as i can stand on my own two feet, i'll be out of your life and as far the fuck away as possible as you like it. there will be nobody to "leech" off you. tired of you yelling in my face.
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
3:08 PM
i've been assigned 4 mods.
intro to econs. intro to psych. intro to pol sci. business, government and society. sigh i'm contemplating whether to take on additional core modules to clear it faster like a lot of people are doing, or whether to simply just not bid and go with 4 examinable subjects for this term. help.
my new laptop has arrived! damn chio. and my phone's holding up well too, my new samsung i780. pretty nice to use a smart phone. though i've yet to really use it to its max with all the 3rd party programs.
just for laughs.
seems like alot of my friends i've made in SMU so far aren't in the same classes assigned to me. sigh. think it's gonna be pretty solitary, just studying after classes and trying to factor in gym with my smu gym buddies here and there. at least warhammer online can be preordered in singapore! haha, good news for a change.